Tuesday, December 30, 2014

the best lina i can be

I've tried to write this post many times & haven't succeeded, but I knew I wanted to do it before the end of 2014 & I have been itching to blog again. As it is, this probably isn't all or exactly what I want to say & I am "typing" this into my notes section on my iPhone as I wait for the sun to rise, but I need to tell you what has been going on in my life. 

I took a break from blogging to focus on healing from my breakup with Miguel. Breaking up was probably the hardest decision I have had yet to make. If you need more details, I can respond to an email from you. The breakup was in August & I  am still going day by day - some days being better than others. I've grown a lot, learning about myself & strengthening my relationship with God. It hasn't been easy & I haven't been able to put what I am feeling into words - which is probably a main reason for my absence on here. This article is probably the best one I have found that puts what I am feeling into words perfectly. I miss him. Sometimes what I have done doesn't make sense to me, but I am trusting in God to help me navigate. 

So far it's been amazing to experience what God has been planning in my life lately. After about a year of wanting to, I finally organized & cleaned my room, got rid of a bunch of things, & built shelves. It felt amazing to purge. After a year of searching, I finally got a new job at an elementary school in September & am really enjoying it. I adopted an orphan kitten in October & named him Theo. In November I turned 27 & although I have mixed feelings about being only three years away from thirty, I welcome the possibilities of a new year of growth for myself. Now I am in December & am preparing myself for the new year. 

I don't have resolutions per se, but I would like to focus this year on being the best me I can be. The best lina. & as I cannot accomplish that without God, the second part of my "resolution" is to be open to his leading & ready for what he does in my life. 2014 has had some growing pains, but I am welcoming 2015 with a hug. 

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  1. ^ Best title I could imagine. And I like that image: welcoming 2015 with a hug!!

    I am about to message you on Facebook to make sure I have your correct address and I will try to send you a package soon! I realize I missed sending you a Christmas card and I'm sorry for that! But once I've settled into my new home in Minnesota and the campus post office opens, I'll send it your way. This means I have more time to make it extra special.

    Happy New Year, my friend!

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    1. that makes me so happy to hear, lizzie. it really does. it took me a while to write this post & i'm glad you got that out of it.

      i'm super excited about this package! what a pleasant surprise!! don't worry about the christmas card. i barely got a few out myself & as it is, i didn't send one to you either. i'm sorry also.

      happy new year : )

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  2. I'm happy to hear you're doing better... Little by little! Breakups are no fun... What a brave step you made. It's not easy to break up with someone you love. Your heart says no, but your gut tells you it's the good choice. It's as you say: take it day by day. I hope you have a wonderful year of rediscovering yourself and great adventures!

    I always find comfort in pretty words. These two still make me feel better when I'm feeling sad and vulnerable:

    "Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'."

    AND always.... "This too shall pass."

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    1. thank you so much for this brit. your words mean a lot to me. they touch my heart. i really feel like you know what i am going through because your words are right on point :)

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  3. Your attitude will allow wonderful new beginnings and adventures in your life! I'm excited to see where it takes you.
    Love you Lina! :)

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    1. thank you petunia! i'm trying & ready as much as i can be. thank you for your hope in my life : ) love you!

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  4. I wish I read this sooner! I am very proud of you, Lina. (: *hugs*

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    1. :) thanks holly. that means a lot.

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